I don’t remember when or how it started but I used to be in my bed thinking this is the end.. if I fall asleep then I won’t wake up again. Of course this led to insomnia and I had trouble learning in school and my life was just miserable. It got better as I got older and today I’m sleeping at least 6 hours a night which is sort of amazing compared to what it used to be. The thing that really helped me overcome this phobia was talking about it with my family and friends and they helped me realize that nothing bad would happen if I closed my eyes, actually it would be worse and more unhealthy if I didn’t get my sleep. So yeah.. I have read some of the stories about others suffering from different phobias and I really hope you come to the point where I am right now because you don’t deserve such a miserable life. It will get better, trust me. I know it seems impossible but eventually time will heal.
Wishing you all good luck in the future.