My fear of rejection started around the age of 6. I started to watch Reality TV Shows with my parents, (or just TV shows like Full House) and there was a scene in Full House where someone broke up with the character Danny, I THINK. I didn’t wanna get hurt that way, and so i began to avoid anyone who was the opposite gender of me. INCLUDING my friend, who was just a friend… I regret ditching him, since he was really friendly. Anyways, I envy others who can get into a relationship, where I can’t cause of this annoying fear. I also rejected others, when they showed any affection for me (if they were the opposite gender and not related).
The symptom I get is:
I breathe rapidly every time someone shows me affection (ESPECIALLY if they’re the same gender, but just as worse if they’re the opposite gender)
I also fear that this leads up to me fearing men.. and I don’t want public embarrassment or being made fun of. I wanna know the way to get rid of this fear, before I get embarrassed.
Another symptom is:
My heart beats right outta my chest (don’t take that literally pls).