All Alone

In 2000 I was attacked by my neighbor. I knocked on his door to ask him to turn down his stereo. I lived in the apartment above him. He was having a party, mid afternoon, all guys in their 20’s . He was very cocky, I was 6 months pregnant. Out of nowhere he did some sort of karate kick to my mouth. I saw my teeth fly out of my mouth. I fell to the ground and he just kept stomping on my mouth. My 16 year old son witnessed this and all I could hear was his screams for the guy to stop. There were about 8 of his friends there all male and not one of them stopped him. I was shocked. When he stopped I told my son to call an ambulance, I couldn’t breathe. He knocked out 5 of my front teeth and crushed my palette. I had my jaw wired shut and went through months of oral surgery. It took me 5 years to open my front door to check my mail. I moved the next day by the way. I suffer from PTSD and Agoraphobia. It has cost me my family and my husband. They don’t understand why I don’t go anywhere, not even family functions. I’m 49 now and everyone has left me all alone. I lost the baby I was carrying. My life is just worthless now. I’m just waiting to die I guess. I wouldn’t abandon my friend or family because of what someone did to them. I would try and take them in the world again and live! I would do my best to make them smile. I’m on disability now, I barely make it, I go without food and thing’s I need. It’s an awful life. I used to be the Goofy one, the class clown, the fun one. Now I’m lost and I’m gonna die alone.