I don’t know why I’m afraid of butterflies. I wish I wasn’t. Most people say,” they can’t hurt you!” I know that, but I just can’t help it. One of my first experiences with butterflies was when I was a toddler and I was watching a show about cartoon bugs and there was this HUGE butterfly that I remember coming on some episodes. It really freaked me out. The wings were so big and the way they flapped.. ugh I hate thinking about it. My first actual experience with a real butterfly was in kindergarten. My class decided to raise butterflies in a kit for classrooms. I wasn’t a real fan of when they were caterpillars, but I was excited for when they would turn into butterflies. When the teacher let them out into the wild that’s when all hell broke loose. I was crying, screaming, and running away out into the street. I felt like they wouldn’t stop following me. My teacher got mad at me for running into the streets and she said it was an overreaction. My classmates said I ruined it. In later years I would try to ride my bike in my driveway and play in my backyard. But as soon as a butterfly came, I took off screaming and crying. There would be times I would walk home from my neighbors and see a butterfly and the same thing would happen. Over the years my friends, classmates, and pretty much everyone who I told would make fun of me. Ridicule me for my fear. And I’ve tried to get over it. I can’t. When I was in elementary school, during a field trip I was the only one in my year to stay behind while everyone else entered a butterfly garden. My teachers laughed at me. My parents told them it was bizarre and they didn’t know why I was like this. I avoid so many places because I know butterflies usually tend to be there. I take certain routes at the park to avoid where they might be. I’ve stopped going to most parks because of them. I’ve also stopped riding my bike because of them. I will now have full on panic attacks when I see one. I really wish people would stop making fun of me because of my fear. I really can’t help it.
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