It started when I turned 18 when I met a friend that has beliefs. This won’t be detailed, but she told me about everything horrible that this world would turn into, from what their religion has been telling them. I started to feel like I had a phobia about the future or what this world would turn into. Now, it’s 2022, I’m already 24, and this “phobia” started to grow because of what’s happening with the current situation and consistent lockdowns. Then everybody is saying that this is to “control” the world. I’m suffering from this phobia, but I’m not actually sure if this is a phobia, I haven’t gone to any doctors, anyway. So I’m self-diagnosing. But, I feel like I’m having this fear for a couple of years, on and off now. Anyway, I know that it will be better for me to consult a professional in this matter, but I’m a Filipino. There are so much more responsibilities than minding your “unsure mental health,” so yes. From where I grew up, we believe that we have to have stronger faith in God because we don’t know and can’t control what the future holds. I just like to share my story. To anyone on the same page as me, let’s pray more, be stronger, enjoy life, do the things that will make us happy, make the most out of it, and be optimistic. PS. I would usually feel this when I’m alone and being a pessimist. But when I’m happy and with someone I am close with, I’m usually okay and not overthinking. PPS. For professionals reading, or anyone who has some opinion, please let me know what you think and if this is normal. Thank you! Love, Jess
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