My name is Alicia Daly and I live in county Cork, in Ireland. I am eleven years old and I suffer from foniasophobia, which is the constant fear of being murdered. I usually avoid websites such as Facebook or Twitter as I am scared that a murderer will track me. It sounds ridiculous but I can’t help feeling that way. My fear has led to my avoidance of as many people as possible, which is then the cause of my lack of being able to socialize. I used to sleep with a night-light until I was about ten years old but after that I got rid of it as I found it embarrassing. My phobia has lead to a fear of the dark, too, because I always have these cynical thoughts in my head like: “what if somebody is hiding there in the dark? They might be holding a gun and staring right at me!” I am too scared to tell my parents because they’ll probably just say it’s normal to get a little bit scared every now and then. I’ve told my two best friends, Katie and Eva, about how frightened I am and they reply by saying that they get scared too when they hear a murderer is on the loose. They just don’t understand! Everybody gets scared when they hear a murderer is on the loose but does everybody barricade themselves into the bathroom for about five hours until they calm down again? I have been to quite a few sites to help me with my problem but they just ask stupid questions like “have you ever met anyone that this has happened to?” and I think: “no, I have not met anyone who has been murdered, as they are too busy being dead!” I am in my last year of primary school and I am going to meet hundreds of people I’ve never met before when I go into secondary. Both Katie and Eva are going to a different secondary school. How will I survive?
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