Multiple Fears

Hallo world. I’m a teen with a decent amount of phobias. It started with ailurophobia, or fear of cats. That one is really mild, so I don’t mind it. It’s kind of funny, actually. It doesn’t really bother me, and I even cat sitted for my friend a month ago or so. It’s just that cats freak me out lol. I’m okay with that phobia, it’s just part of me. That was back in 5th grade or so, and I still have it but it’s fine by me. Then came the fear of being rejected. This one actually went away so it’s ok now. I didn’t mind that one so much, another mild one. Then came claustrophobia. This one isn’t that bad, and it hasn’t really negatively impacted my life. There’s this one elevator in the place where I go to my dentist that is really small. I always feel like the walls are pressing in. It does trigger fear of losing air whenever I go into elevators but it’s not keeping me up at night or anything, thankfully. Then I have the fear of being alone. This one isn’t that bad. I like alone time but whenever I’m alone I always think of death and my thanatophobia, which I’ll talk about later. Then emetophobia, the fear of vomit. It’s kinda weird but vomit just absolutely disgusts me and I have a mild fear of vomit. Mild, but still sticks with me. It’s kinda funny though. Well next came thanatophobia, or fear of death. It’s been an underlying fear my whole life, but I’ve never really put a name to it until a year ago. It started small, then grew even worse over time. It’s been keeping me up at night and almost to the point where it’s impacting my grades. Some nights before I go to sleep I just think “When I die, it’s over. It’s really over. It’s the end.” This doesn’t seem like much but it’s horrible. I am afraid of others dying, mostly my family and close friends, but it’s the fear of me dying that really gets me. It’s been invading my life. I know it sounds stupid but it’s honestly horrible for me. It’s been a rough year since I discovered I have it, and it kinda led me into depression. Just a week ago when I thought I got out of depression, though I still had thanatophobia, I’m kinda back in depression a bit now. Anyways, those who suffer from thanatophobia or any of these fears (or any fear) just know you’re not alone. Please just be kind to yourself. Also please let me know if there are any ways to solve some of my fears or something. I really would like a way to get revenge on thanatophobia. Thank you so much for reading. Bye! :)