I am really afraid of the strangest and weirdest things. I’m talking about those things when something turns randomly into an apple, then vomits a weird looking liquid, then something forms from that liquid, etc. It’s like a never-ending cycle of everything turning into everything. And not just that kind of stuff. I have had a really weird dream twice in my life already, where everything’s just white, with a few doors around. I remember that there was an area with lots of balls on the floor and a few random kids. I was a kid too back then and I played with them with the balls. I then walked to a steel door with a few locks and when I opened it, there was a random guy with a beard, talking to me. I don’t know why but when I woke up I was just really scared. I hope I will never have that dream again.
When I see the weirdest things, I always get really, really scared and I really want to cry. Like the creepiest things.
One time my brother challenged me to watch this video called “Obey the Walrus”. He told me to watch it if I’m brave enough. My brother watched it and he said it wasn’t even scary. I asked my brother what kind of “scary” he is talking about, the “creepy” scary or the scary scary. (lol wut?) Of course he wouldn’t get it, but he said “It’s a scary scary thing.” I accepted the challenge because I thought it was something scary like ghosts or something, and I have no problem with that.
But I didn’t know that it was the kind of scary that is really weird and creepy.
I started the video and it showed a weird looking white mask with red eyes, singing a really creepy song. It didn’t trigger my phobia yet, but as I watched it I felt scared. Only seconds after that, 5 seconds I think, a really weird pattern was shown in the video (i think it was a weird pattern, i dont really remember since it was the scariest thing not worth remembering, wut) along with the creepiest song. I immediately panicked after seeing it for like, 1 second, almost threw my brother’s phone, and I didn’t know what to do. I just threw the phone on the bed, threw a pillow over it, and I sat on the pillow while shouting really loud because I can’t bare to listen to the sounds. I didn’t even pause it because I panicked immediately after seeing that horrible thing. I quickly ran outside the room, still panicking, and jumped on the couch, shivering, and trying to prevent myself from crying, because I didn’t want to embarrass myself. I was scared for a long time, and just waited for the video to finish. My brother is now also scared of the video because he got startled when I began shouting (that’s the reason he told me lol).
I think I also have Xenophobia (not enough proof) because when I was really curious about what my phobia was, I looked it up, but nothing about it appeared. I tried changing the words I searched for but nothing appeared. I was scared and about to cry when I didn’t know what my phobia was called. But the xenophobia thing only affected me when I couldn’t find anything about my fear, but not any other thing that I was curious about. (Maybe just being anxious?).
Can someone tell me something about this fear of weirdness, because I really want to explain it to someone since I haven’t told this to anyone. Not even my bff.
My Fear of Something Really Weird or Random
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