Hello folks I am a 39 year old married mother of six and caretaker for an ailing elderly father in law. My life is limited by several fears/phobias which I have tried several drastic measures to conquer yet still feel as though I am controlled by them. I have been happily married for 20 years and have six beautiful children and I fear that my anxiety and fears could be passing on to them. My greatest fear that I would love to accomplish is driving. I have tried driving and actually enjoy it however, I live in a very busy town and cannot see myself able to drive. I did try for my permit once and failed and never went back. I fear that my almost 18 year old and 29 year old may too suffer from this anxiety. I also have a fear of heights and have tried amusement park rides trying to break that all of which caused a severe panic attack. I have a fear of flying and have flown both a helicopter and plane. My experience wasn’t traumatic but I can’t see myself being able to board another one without extreme anxiety. I do also have a fear of large bodies of water. I can attribute these fears and phobias to some traumatic events as well as the fact that my family never allowed us nor taught us how to drive out of control over us. I have had two traumatic experiences both with a semi hitting us with my child in the vehicle as well as the same child being thrown in a pool when he was very little and unable to swim by a dangerous nephew that seems to have triggered my horrific fear of large bodies of water. I want to some day feel normal and am finding it very difficult to do so. And lastly but not least I have a social anxiety to the point I avoid settings where my children want to be a part of as well as normal errands. Very full stores, grocery shopping, holidays, etc. I will sit in the car while my family goes in the store or have a complete meltdown and have to have my husband take me home and sending him back to the store to complete necessary errands. I have stayed home for months at a time due to my anxiety and want to live a normal life please help. Thank you and God Bless You.
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