Unspecified/Unknown Phobia

Uh, okay.. To begin, I’m turning 17 in two months. I’m a female, senior in high school – Online schooling. I’m just a typical awkward and antisocial teen who’s afraid of crowded spaces, the dark, and public school. But, I don’t think those are phobias I have. However, I’m pretty sure I do have a phobia of speaking to other females, in specific. I feel nauseous when surrounded by them and I just feel like running away as quick as possible. I usually have panic attacks too when around them. But, that’s not why I’m typing this post. I have what seems to be an unknown phobia, at least from what I know. I’m too afraid to search it up on my own because, I fear this animal/bird THIS much. I cannot stand to look at it and I don’t even know what it is! I believe it’s a bird. It’s.. a peacock. Yeah, probably sounds stupid and irrational to you, but yes. I am CERTAIN I have a phobia of peacocks. I’m not sure how to explain it, but if it helps, I have a phobia of moths. And it’s their PATTERN that I’m afraid of. Same with peacocks. The feathers of a peacock and the wings of a moth – both my body just cannot stand so much as glancing at them. My parents don’t understand how bad this is and think that I’m just over-exaggerating when I scream and duck down and start fiercely rubbing my arms and legs with my hands and start crying. That image of their pattern will ACTUALLY show up in my dream later on that night and it’s torture. I remember the day of my exe’s birthday. He invited me to a hotel with his mom and cousins and the place we stayed in was PEACOCK PLAZA. (I believe it was ‘Plaza’). I ducked my head and used both of my arms to cover my head and I shut my eyes tightly. My ex thought I was just trying to be “cute” and he helped me into the plaza without looking at any of the peacock portraits on display. This is LITERALLY ruining my life! Please, does anyone know what this phobia is?